Still considering whether anot to join the CNY committee. I mean, i do love decorating and painting =]. I can do it all time long and even sacrifice eating, (which wouldn't happen in any case, unless this). Even its not painting, designing and brainstorming will do. Simply enjoy the beautyness of the outcome.
"Im not afraid of stress." "Im concern of my study." (which totally sucks like shit at the moment!!) "Im worried if I cant meet the expectation." "What if the whole thing looks shit?!"
Watcha say?
update: And Im IN! No regrets! Gotta make some history happen man! Rock that stage!! =)
I ve made the super-decision on my own. Even my dad cant take it all in suddenly. He's like: " Are you sure? Dont be like this lah." Guess he cant bare the security of his daughter to travel alone yet. Yet, I took KTM. Its my 1st time though. Decided to take it as my transport to college everyday. And you know what? I feel freedom! Im no more restricted to anyone's time & ****-****** anymore! To "car-pool" isn't any easy as you thought alright. You'll get mental-pressure .
" oh my, still got one minutes the car's here" or "uh oh, where is the "subject", I need you to go home" or " You dun wanna lunch ar, okay then, I have no choice." or " Remember me Im following you, Dont abandon me" or begging for people's mercy! Hate to do that!
Its okay if you dont understand the mental pressure or stress or whatever worries im going through. Just wanna let it all out here. Such an endless concerns which made me go physcho for past few months. Im glad i've done something that gives me peace of mind.
And so, I got myself a Touch 'n Go card. At least the design is better than the older version ones. =]
And yea, Im so grateful I got Yeecheung & Iverene to help me out during the very day of my disaster after the English assign 2. *Loves* unlike those, ugh!!!! dun mention it!
Was suppose to attend 2pm class. Sitting beside Han & Bryan was across the com lab in library, What happen? TitCheng & YeeHan was laughing-so-evily-loud at Bryan Lee!!
Feeling much fed-up-ness with myself that I feel like freeing myself outta myself! I know I can! I really know I can whenever Im into it! I know I could bare with endurance against great pressure & tensions. Got the initiative, inspiration!! Even slept no more thinking and just thinking about how could I start the whole thing, only then I could make it jaw-dropping cause thats what I do best!! I need guidelines from the experiencer to start, to take the first step, All I need is a first step, a step outta my comfort zone and start what I believe in! Need an initiate idea! The initiate idea would be the first thing to brainstorm. Waste my time no more to venture in! Couldn't bare to rest my dream in peace! Just coudn't!
First of all, there are few lame reasons why havent i been updating around here:
1. Last week is a hell of a week. rushing two assignments at the same time .Yea i know i've been procrastinating, but actually it aint that rushing at all, unlike last sem. hee~ And most of all, i cant believe that i actually went to the library? and borrowed 5 super-large-heavy-duty-Econs- reference-book!!
Its just for the sake of answering one small sub-quest regarding supply! And thank god Yee Han (THANKS =]) is there to help me carry some to my car. Despite that, was lucky that my bro was willing to pick me up in front of the campus, or else i'll loss some pounds carrying THESE walking a long way to the car! And i dont wanna imagine that!
The moral assign? It's a 3P (Purely-Plagiarised-Product) I tell you! All i did was just make it times news roman, font 12, 1.5 spacing, erase all the rates-percentage-phrase (cause it'll prove me copy pasted straight away) and the most important : Justify those paragraphs & decorate it with the header and footer!!! Aint that genius?! Yea I know thanks =)
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2. And there're tonnes (for exaggerate purpose only) of test which I din put much effort on it and maybe thats why i seems more relax than others?
*thinking*
I've been thinking why do i seems relax this sem ya know. Nothing to do with assigns & test simply because I know i'll sort those out at the end of the day. duh~
*thinking*
Come to think of it, I figured out that Im not ORGANISING any event this sem!! Thats why im feeling a whole lotsa emptiness.
Ah the 30 Hour Famine Camp. Was sucha "once upon a time".
Which successfully made me:
kong~
Back to the point: I flunk my test. Did it badly. Not up to expectations. May my test ONEssss rest in peace. Weirdly enough though, Im not feeling sad of it. (because there's always test 2! haha!)
3. For the past few days too, the lines are extremely suck! Keep DC DC , TroubleShoot TroubleShoot, Loading Loading, Refresh Refresh those shitty web pages till i broke my record and went to sleep very early!!
And that made me cram all-my-thoughts-to-blog-at-here-which-would-be-A-HeLl-of-a-LoNg-PoSt!!
IM DONE!
says adores me, and then ignores me whats the problem? ya keeps ya distance, and sits on fences. puts up resistance, and builds defences. bcause of rumours? ya keep me hangin on, & we're not moving on. we're standing still then!
You see. Within few days, people can go off one by one. And yea, I mean go off, as in they became decease, not alive, not having a breath. Some too young, not even got a single strand of white hair. This is too scary. Sigh. May u guys rest in peace. *U guys as in, friend of friend, neighbor and relative.
All of this just remind me of how lucky I am. Oh i am so gonna live my life to the fullest and cherish every sec and breath im gifted to. So dont blame me for laughing too much alryte? U cant laugh when u're dead you know.
